LIfe game

 Life game, a game which has impacted my life so greatly that I have this urge to do more and share more. Errr.... I'm lost for words..... pardon me....

Change topic then.

Well, my post for now would be related to reality. I believe with all my heart that when christians are fulfilling their part as God's vessel, the enemy is always pulling up his socks and on the tip of his toes waiting to navigate us to disaster and procrastination. Some times I wonder why he existed in the first place. Everything happens for a purpose, I'll say no more on that. Recently in school, I saw a very disturbing situation happened in school where we have the queers- not straight relationship so to speak.

As a prefect I couldn't allow such nonsense and despicable acts being portrayed. and Iknow deep down in my heart that I just gotta do something about it without me being in the picture. So, I went and inform the discipline mistress to handle this case. After all, she's more suitable for such a thing. I sincerely meant well for the queered person and in return I receive harangues and a text full of swears and indecent language which I just have that feeling of slapping that person's cheek to wake that person up.

Apparently the devil is always in the picture and he plans to destruct things like he always does. I almost got on top of my anger and was bout to blast and tell her a piece of my mind on her social-misfit kinda attitude and those salacious ,indecent, unbearable, pestering, ghastly acts. pheww feels good to let it out. Still, the WWJD letters just popped into my mind. What would Jesus do if he's thew onetaking my place.

I was reminded of one of the fruit of the spirit at that very moment- self control. Shame on you satan! All glory still belongs to God! I am forever grateful that the HOly spirit gave me a strong reminder. Or else I'll end up as a bait of satan. Feel and sounds ironic, but God is the judge and justice comes from Him. Everything will be justified , no doubt about that.

       Sarawak- a land not just lavished by natural resources but filled with people of different tribes. Looking into the brighter side of it, Sarawak is indeed a beauty. I've been there for a week ministering to the people and fellowshiping with them. The experience was superb!

        Before the trip, as always I would come up with my own reason by mentioning I have financial crisis, uncertain commitments and yada yada yada. However, the Holy Spirit stirred my heart and asked me this particular question that broke my heart, " If you love God, you will place your faith in Him and start to experience situations that's out of the comfort zone."

      On that moment I was awestrucked and couldn't think of anything but to drag my feet (trust me there's reluctance ) to the registration table and unenthusiastically wrote my name in the list. I wasn't too sure whether I'm  going and fearful of a wrong decision. So the days passed, and there came our first meeting. I was chosen to be the prayer coordinator anyway. My heart was pounding even faster because I'm in a state of cluelessness where I literally go blank when it comes to missions though I was prayer coordinator for some other events.

    I prayed and God gave me a few instructions to lead these bunch of missionaries into building their growth with Christ. And so I did, I browsed through many websites for devotions and prayer pointers that are essential for the trip. The sending went on and until it approaches the day before missions. All of us were filled with excitement but somehow some undesired happenings occured. People had nightmares , eerie visions, sudden incease of work load and ill-conditions of health.

   Thankfully all these gibberish from the devil never stopped us from pursuing what God wants. The spirit of the team was united and has shown  great stoicism.  Saturday morning, 3.50 a.m.! we gathered infornt of church office and did what we had to do. Then off we go to LCCT aka Low cost carriage terminal-hopefully I gave the right abbrevation- hehe.  We boarded off and sat in the plane for a long-winded, tedious 105 minutes ride. Everyone literally slept in the plane due to some serious inertias and tiredness.

   After that, we finally reach the land Sarawak. Sister ruth brought us the warmest greetings outside the baggage redemption area and off we went  with 3 charted vans. We had a short time of breakfast at the nearest food court at Kuching, and suprisingly we have another 2400 minutes to bear in the van to our destination-Betong. Along the way we bought groceries for dinner.

  The driving went on and we've reached Betong.The church is called Sion/Zion in english baptist church. An awesome church raised by Pastor Lesley and his lovely partner-for-life Mrs Lesley haha. The place was conducive to our needs and we had the best siesta ever, though it's filled with " symphonies" you know what I mean.  Then came 3.30 p.m. where dinner is supposed to be prepared. You know what happens when it comes to cooking, haha the culinary side of me just overpowered my senses and I started chopping, dicing, pounding, frying, peeling, you mention it!

  It was also the first time I've sucessfully fix a cauldron of soup. Standing ovation for me! Joking..... Trust me that night we feasted and there's this super duper fine tasting dish that serves as a must try in Sion Baptist, none other than Bamboo chicken. It's nothing but MAMAMIA! Then we practised our skits and other items. There came the middle of the night, my buddy Reuben "pestered" me to sleep next to him. Well he deserves the love so I went and slept beside him. Herhhh, the night was filled with his nonsence! haha he's just doing what he does best. But I am more than grateful to have him as a buddy.

   Next morinng, we joined the service and had a wonderful time of ministry. We ministered to many and believe me these people here are desperate. I salute them for their maxim of life- None but Jesus. Self-consciousness was not an issue, people will burst in tears and kneel before the King of Kings for just one touch from Him. Even when I was praying for them I could hear ,really hear their hearts cry, JESUS!

To be continued

-There'll not be any pictures displayed in this blog. If you wish to see it do drop by rrsel6, or missions magazine 2006 Glad Tindings. Thank you!  

   Oh how I hate temptation! Well, today I was totally trapped in a situation where both ways seemed dead. In other words stuck-to-dilemma. Gosh I detest that feeling! How could I just give in to such a temptation where the grace of God was given free to me.

I'm so much so a fool!!!!!

let bygones be bygones anyway, no use crying over spilt milk..... Just take a step forward and move on. Just pray that I will somehow be exempted from this circumstance and don't have to throw myself harangues..............................................

Lord, forgive me for who I am

I need Your grace and strength ,

MORE!

Come and decrease my inner being and increase Your likeness in me,

Let me live a life that pleases You than living like a lost sheep.

Lord I pray that You'll continue to minister to me in Your ways and make me more like You

In JEsus name! Amen.

   After such a looooooooong time , I've decided to publish another journey of my life. Well, many circumstances had passed me by and I tangibly encounter all my ups and downs, in's and outs. I've teared, joyed,endured the best and the worst.

  Life to me has never been complete, but I'm ever thankful for my God that has smashed me and moulded me again and again. Remonstrations, obstacles and many other life's unexpected situation happened, and I'm so glad to say I've endured it all with Christ.

  Consequently, my desire to worship Him with my lifestyle had also been raised to a higher level. Apart from using my gift of singing and performing, it's great just to be inspired day by day by His Word. That really proves that we humans are prone to fall and we need Him more than He needs us. 

  Words from Him are never devastating. Reading it brings more than just how to live a life, but to Live is Christ! All praise be to God.  Not forgetting also that this particular stanza did a great impact in my daily worship for Him. It goes "You have someone who loves you unconditionally. He accepts you just as you are unreservedly. When you think you are weird, He thinks you are unique. When you feel lost, He is just a call away. He is never too busy for you, never misjudges you, and never condemns you. In fact He knows everything about you. He listens to your cries, heals your pain, and help you find your identity. His passion is for your success in life. If you know Him who is willing to die for you and made a great change in your life, shoudn't we then be totally Sold out to Jesus?  "

  I believe every Word He says, people might view me as they want to. But there's this awesome friend who stays closer than a brother .Who'll stand for me in whatever I do. None but Jesus!

Hey!!!!... its a new year where we will wear NEW clothes, NEW resolutions, NEW style and all the NEWs...........etc....

First week of school was intensely stressful and certainly not a cinch! well as usual, familiar and strange faces appear every year.... Things are getting laborious and challenging...... I started doing my studies everyweek... And believe me.... I never know that by doing this i'm actually smarter instead of being a blur blighter in Malay subjects.... Maths, Science, and english are currently simple yet deep....

Allys are getting more in my list..... some mulish as ever, some sustain.... By the way, we finally have a new english teacher... she's more than our expectation, she's the most kind, compassionate yet discipline teacher in my whole lower secondary..... hehe..

My testimonies for this begining of the year is whizzing so fast in my mind that overflows me... Alas, I have to make my leave now... I'll make my posts next time... chao!